Hi girl! I know it have been long since I blogged here.
No matter how long I disappear from this blog,
it doesn't mean you disappeared from my heart.
Girl, no one is too busy to miss you, trust me.

19th March 2009.
I can't forget this date, really.
Many a times I asked everyone around me, why do the good die young?
Why did you left us so quickly?
I've known you for 3 years.. Supposedly 4 years...
We have always said "life sucks" but do we really wanna leave?
Girl I cannot bear you to go but why is life so unfair?

Many have told me to take this as an experience in life.
Everything happens for a reason.
Why must this experience and lesson cost your life?
I cannot let go of this truth you know.. All I can do is just think and think.
This experience is just too costly for me to handle.

A few moments ago I was thinking, imagining the pain you had to go thru.
Just before your death. The pain...
Were you just about to give up? Did you tell yourself to be persistent?
When your heartbeat was saved.. Did you know?
When it was gone, did you feel that the pain was gone?
Did the pain stop when everything ended? Did you hear us?
If you could, did you want us to stop crying?
Did you just give up? Why did you?
Why did your heart have to stop a second time?

All of us feels guilty. We miss you so much.
Why didn't we have the last chance to redeem ourselves?
If you hadn't left, we wouldn't know the meaning of friendship.
But must it take your precious life to let us realise we've been bitches?
Girl, we love you.
We love you.
God loves you.

Lastly. I love you.

With so so so so much love and guilt,
Angela.