Dear Qi

For you @-->--

Spoke to your dad last week and been trying to arrange for pastor to drop by to support and counsel your mum and dad this period. I can tell that your dad wanted to be help and your mum was open when i asked her if she wanted counsel from church even though she is a non believer.
Talked to your dad again today and tried to confirm that church will still come to visit your mum if your dad not available the evening we first arranged.

Ask my dad's therapist to pray for the visit too that God will do something for your parents and your di too. Do you know we still miss you a lot lot lot..... God Father loves you more than we do here...... He does what He has to do..... He also knows our pain and hurt when He took you.

I try to read 'our daily bread' message dated june 8 to remind me God's sovereighty. That message was rather similar to what happened to you and how your parents felt. And that girl in the message was also same age as you. You must be well with God in heaven now.

You know....maybe some people will call me 'xiao' why you with Jesus when the funneral conducted is taoist ritual..... it doesn't matter they called me crazy for i know the true living God's words prevails.....maybe they will know some time later.

Miss you and love you
on behalf of,
your mum, dad and di (benson)
cousin




Dear Qi

For you always @-->--

As i mentioned earlier that i been praying and asking God why had happened..... and today God confirmed again to me through the new 'Our daily bread' on date 8 of June. In fact, God had shown me earlier in Psalm 139:16 but i wasn't that sure until 2 weeks later today He confirmed it.

In my own thinking, Jesus probably had told you why it happened and the purposes. Whatever His purposes, we will still meet again one day and there will be such joy and happiness with Jesus in Heaven. Only that will encourage me and paul and your dad and others too. Paul said you were like our child.... yes indeed, i had looked upon you like mine. I had also shared with your dad what God has shown me today. I guessed he felt consoled too.

Miss you
cousin

P.S
Dear Angela,
Please feel free to write in Amelia's blog. It would be nice that you write too. Thanks.


Dear Qi

Always for you..... @-->--

Hui ling jie jie has talked to her church pastor and they will come and visit your parents and your di soon..... with comforting words to help them this painful period.

I prayed and asked God why had happened? why? why?

I know some time you feel 'hollow' lacking of fatherly concern. God knows that too and so does your angel... you know every time you missed school and wondered alone around the neighbourhood .... your angel which God sends was with you.
I was also concerned when you wondered alone, that why i tried to keep you at my place on days you dont feel like going school.

Please wait paitently for us until God calls us Home....

Love you and miss you
cousin





Dear Qi

For you my dear Qi..... @-->--

This evening i sms your mum when suddenly i felt i should sms her and ask how she is.
Dont worry dear Qi......................i will see that she is ok so with God's help that she can reunited with you next time. She afterall your mum.

As i felt the pain when thinking of you so i asked your mum if she likes someone to support her emotionally at this time in counselling that she will be less painful. Glad your mum agreeded.

You know... hui ling jie jie... she will arrange someone from her church to counsel your mum and your di (brother) and maybe your dad at this time to help them this difficult period. It will do them good for they will be comforted.

Though you not here...but you live in our hearts and now with Jesus in Heaven. We'll meet one day again. So may God's purposes be done on earth as in Heaven.

Love you
your cousin








Dear Qi

Always a @-->-- for you.

Did you notice Angela drop by to say she misses you? You are fondly missed by many many people. We all love you, you know.

I want to thank you for giving me the respect when you were at my place. You always sms me asking if you can play laptop even though i was at my dad's place or do your maths later or if you can go to shop.

You were a good girl though you don't like school and skipped school some time. And you also texted me some time in the morning to ask if you can dont go school for that day.
I accepted your 'sorry' on your blog on your last friday with us when i told you earlier i was upset when you missed school.

God gave you to us for 14 years and took you away later in His time. Your absence from earth are not without God's purposes for which I pray He will reveal to us in time to come.
Jesus says we can talk to Him about you.... how we miss you for He understands our human pain and hurt when He was on earth more than 2000 years ago. Yes.... I've been confiding to Him to release my pain to Him time and time again.

You are well with Jesus and loved by God Father in Heaven. How i wished He had taken you Home later.

Love you
cousin






Dear Qi

For my dear Qi........@-->--

Whenever Paul and me thought of you, Jesus always encourages us that He is with you in the midst of His glorious Heaven where there are no tears but joy and happiness in Him.
I am encouraged that one day we will meet again even though the rites they did was different but the true living God's Word prevails....... that all children whether black or white go to Him for He loves all children of the world.

Together with some believers we have been praying that by God's help, your dad will change for he was away from Him for long time. And God's Holy spirit to heal your parents, brother, Jian wei and us..... also those who love you of our pain and wound.

Dear Qi.... we all love you a lot lot lot.....

Love you
cousin


Dear Qiqi,

For you.... @-->--

Thank you for your friends like Angela and Bee Han and of course others too.............. Angela, many thanks for showing Amelia how to blog.

I am reading a book about Heaven, a divine relevation of Heaven written by an american paster, Mary Baxter whom Jesus showed how Heaven is like. It beautiful beyond our imagination and description where there are flowers, birds, greenery and horses and of course, Jesus and lots of angels. I am glad to learn that you will be happy and full of joy there and you are loved by God the Father. It said you are not lonely there for you will know everyone there. You will know one of our cousin there too who passed on when she was just 9 years more than 20 years ago and our 3rd uncle who left when he was 13 years. God Father says He loves all children in the world. You are still a child in God's eyes. And He loves you!!

I bought the book 10 years ago... didn't expect i am reading again for your sake.... to know that you are well in Jesus' care. Thank you... Jesus.


Love you,
cousin


Every day, I'd look at my phone. Thinking that you would sms me. Can't accept the fact that you're not here to message me. Not there to webcam with me in the middle of the night. Every morning, I have the habit to text you, to tell you to meet me, to slack with me.

I still remember you created this blog for me. I asked you to blog, I taught you what to blog. Though you said that you didn't have time and computer but I still ask you to. I really didn't regret asking you to blog, gives me memories whenever I come :)

Been missing you alot. Everywhere we went before, gives me so much memories. Hope you're happy wherever you are right now. I really hope you are. I know you are independent, like always. You can go shopping alone... Do homeworks alone... I miss you girl.

With much loves,
Angela.


Dear Qiqi,

Another rose for you........... @-->--

I am still thinking of you..........
Do you know you are my favourite cousin? Took care of you when you were a baby while your mum was busy. You are more than a cousin to me......Taught you how to read the ' peter and jane' ladybird book. Carried you home from the nanny's house when your mum worked late. And many many sweet memories of you..........

Love you,
cousin


Dear Qiqi,

A @-->-- for you.

Do you know how glad me and paul are to know where exactly you are now........... that you are in Heaven with Jesus and His glory and care. I shall tell your dad the good news too lest he worries about you.

In God Word ( the Holy Bible):

Matt 18.10
Take heed that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say in Heaven their angels always see the face of My Father who is in heaven.

Matt 18.14
Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.

Aren't you the little ones ??? Yes!!!!! You are still a child at the tender of 14 yrs plus and that your guardian angel always look to Heaven where God is.

We may know not exactly what God's plan for what had happened .............but He has His purposes for His ways are higher than our ways and so are His thoughts than our thoughts. So may His will be done on earth as in Heaven.

My dad's therapist who is also a believer has also confirmed me that you were Jesus by His merciful grace after i've been praying to God since the day He took you.

So.... then we shall meet at the gates of Heaven when God call us Home..... here on earth we still miss you, your giggles when you told me your brother called to say he missed you when you were here at my place some time ago.

Love you
your cousin and paul


Dear Qiqi,

Here are some roses for you. Hope you like them.

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Not a day pass without thinking of you........... for you were part of our lives.

Love you.
All of us